As of Now…

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Carrot Cake July 31, 2008

Filed under: Recipes — lookingforward73 @ 11:47 pm

Growing up, my mom would make the best homemade carrot cake with cream cheese frosting. Lately I’ve had a hankering for some. The challenge? To make a WLS friendly version. That would mean no white flour, sugar, or oil. Plus it needed to pack an extra fiber and protein punch to make it worth the precious pouch space it would fill. So I took some inspiration from Michelle (eggface) and her combos of almonds, oats, soy flour, and protein powder. And I combined it with my love of adding pureed veggies to unsuspecting baked goods. There will be a link on the side bar to a veggie puree how to.

So, onto what I did. Here are the ingredients:

½ cup whole raw almonds
1 cup dry old fashioned oatmeal
½ cup soy flour
¼ cup flax seed meal
2 scoops vanilla protein powder
1 tsp baking soda
½ tsp salt
½ tsp baking powder
4 tsp cinnamon
1 tsp nutmeg
2 large eggs
1 tsp vanilla
½ cup pureed squash
½ cup pureed pumpkin
2 cups shredded carrots
1 box (1 oz) box raisins
1 cup chopped walnuts

In a food processor, grind the almonds and oats into a fine meal. Mix together with the rest of the dry ingredients in a large bowl. Slightly beats the eggs in a separate bowl and mix in the vanilla, squash, pumpkin, carrots, raisins and walnuts. Fold the mixture into the dry mix and mix till moistened.

I used an 8×8 pan sprayed with nonstick spray. I would probably use a 9×13 next time. Bake in a preheated oven at 350 for 35 minutes. After it cooled for awhile I cut it into 16 squares. Here’s the nutritional value for the ingredients I used:

Nutrition Facts
16 Servings

Amount Per Serving

Calories 147.8
Total Fat 9.1 g
Total Carbohydrate 11.0 g
Dietary Fiber 3.4 g
Sugars 2.0 g
Protein 8.9 g

Look how pretty and TALL a serving is!

Knowing I couldn’t eat a whole serving without being stuffed, I cut them in half horizontally. Therefore, you can cut the info above in half!

Now, carrot cake wouldn’t be complete without cream cheese frosting, right? I started with a brick of 1/3 less fat cream cheese. I put it in the food processor with a couple tablespoons sugar free vanilla torani syrup and a couple tblspns skim milk. After whizzing it up I did a tiny taste test and could tell it wasn’t quite sweet enough. So I mixed in three packets of splenda. Then I used a pastry thingie to put the little cream cheese frosting swirls on top.

Here’s a funny for ya – I was setting up these shots to take in the kitchen and Tim (hubby) comes walking through. I just look up at him and say, ‘food porn’. He keeps walking and says, ‘well I’m getting a stomach boner’. HA!!!


Not bad

Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 5:26 am

But still a junkie. I’m gonna need to come to terms with this somehow. I’ve realized that I go through periods of using food for something. What thing? I’m not sure. But I need to figure it out. I knew surgery wouldn’t fix my head. It did fix it that I couldn’t indulge my pleasures with such great abandon. And for that I am grateful. But I know that my pouch restriction will not last forever. So that leaves me with dealing with this shit. I have to deal with it and not just rely on my pouch size to keep me in line. I didn’t weight today at all. I don’t plan to tomorrow. Weighing everyday has not been a problem in the past, but right now I feel like I need a break from the scale. So, we’ll see when I get back on. I’m setting some new pedometer goals too. I’ve been wearing it, but slacking off on actual workouts.

Todays eats:

Coffee with ff creamer
the delicious blueberry concoction below
beans and chicken
protein shake with banana and PB2
out to dinner – chicken salad – ate half
other half of salad
water and crystal light


redeeming myself July 30, 2008

Filed under: Recipes — lookingforward73 @ 5:04 pm

This was breakfast. It was yummy. What is it?? It is a single serving cup of cottage cheese, a half cup of frozen blueberries, and a couple of splashes of sugar free Torani raspberry syrup. Throw it all in the magic bullet, or blender, or mini food processor and whiz it up till you have a creamy, frozen, yummy, refreshing bowl of goodness. What do I call it? A frozen blueberry cottage? Cheesy blueberries? Blueberry cream? How about ‘The cool blue cottage’?



Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 4:41 am

Such an ugh ugh ugh-ly day. It’s 10:30 pm and I feel yucky, disgusting, bloated, and fail-urish. Why? There are many reasons. I ate too much today. It started out ok – I had my morning coffee with creamer. Then for breakfast two mini quiches and some mandarin oranges. We were going to the kitchen to work for a few hours. So I decided I’d better eat before I go. I dug out the south beach pizza that was in the freezer. First time I’d had one of those. Definately not worth the hype and expense and anything else. Just blah. I ate half. Went off to work in the kitchen with my bottle of water. Half way through I decided I needed a coffee. So I went to the coffee place and got myself a sugar free, iced, latte. Sipped it till I got home. Also, had a few bites of gluten free pizza crust. Decided on a high protein meal of two turkey meatballs with a string cheese melted over top. One of my biggest problems with not drinking while eating is being left with the ‘food’ taste in my mouth after finishing. So I had a bag of south beach dark chocolate soy nuts. I should have stopped there. I didn’t. I had a no sugar added ice cream bar. Then I thought – uh oh. I’m in trouble. Went to lay down, then took a trip to the toilet (not throwing up) – fell asleep. Got up and sipped on my latte from earlier. Figured I would make some beans and turkey for dinner. Tim came home with a pizza. Took a small piece and decided to eat the cheese and toppings off the top. Then decided on the crust too. Then I was left with the ‘food’ taste again – so I swigged a couple ozs of crystal light. I made the beans and chicken for a later dinner tonight. I am a junkie. A food junkie. And surgery does not cure you of your addiction. Granted, pre-op the binge would have involved much more food. But apparently I am still able to binge. This is not good. It’s down right shameful. I can just picture what some people would say. All the – ‘I can’t believe you were able to eat all of that!’, ‘I would NEVEr be able to eat that!’, ‘what are you doing eating like that after surgery?’. It’s the end of the day and I need to be done with the guilt, shame, overeating, and self loathing.

So what was good about today???

* I recognize I have a problem.
* I’m honest about it.
* Tomorrow is a fresh start.

Not a great list of good huh? oh well.


Vegetable purees July 25, 2008

Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 8:44 am

I was still pre-op when the book ‘Deceptively Delicious’ by Jessica Seinfeld came out.  I picked it up and became enthralled with all the fun recipes that involved pureed veggies.  One of the first recipes I tried were the spinach brownies.  LOVED them!  And you totally couldn’t tell that there were pureed spinach and carrots mixed in.

After surgery I started to think once again about the veg purees.  Why not?  What a great way to add in some vegetable vitamins, fiber, and nutrients without the bulk that us post ops can’t do.  Guess what??  I made a new version of spinach brownies – this time without white flour or sugar and with an extra punch of protein.  Stay tuned……


My bike July 24, 2008

Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 6:11 pm

A pink Electra townie.  I love it.  It’s cute, comfy, and easy to ride.  And sometimes I even attach the trailer to it to haul around the kid and his dog.  Michelle – maybe you could haul around some protein ice cream samples to the neighbors???