As of Now…

“Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin.” – Mother Theresa

174.5 October 18, 2008

Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 3:21 pm

That’s my weight this morning. So. Weird. I couldn’t imagine myself below 180 before and now I’m heading into the 160’s?! This picture was taken yesterday. I was on a field trip with my 10 year old daughters class. It shocked me when I saw this. I look so …. normal. Not fat. Just a normal person. That seems strange to me. I still look down in the shower and see a big fat jiggly huge stomach. That doesn’t seem to be going away. Yet I am still losing. From where?? I have no ass to take it from. No hips, boobs are shrunk, still some flab on arms. I’m thinking that if I keep losing it HAS to start coming off my stomach, right? I have my 6 month appt with the surgeon on Monday. I’m wondering what he’s going to say about my progress.


6 month update October 9, 2008

Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 2:59 am

70 pounds September 10, 2008

Filed under: Food,Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 3:35 am

That’s how much I’ve lost since July 07. Today I weighed 184. Down from 254. I’m amazed. I’ve never been able to say that I’ve lost that much weight. Nice feeling to have since I’ve been bummed about staying the same weight.

I haven’t been very hungry the last couple of days. I have my protein coffee first thing in the morning. Then around 9-10 am I figure I’d better eat breakfast. Today it was 1/3 cup cottage cheese (I really do like cottage cheese!) topped with peaches that I diced and cooked with sf torani vanilla syrup, pecans, and cinnamon. Tastes like a peach cobbler. Then around 12:30 I made some roasted eggplant spread. I used a fajita sized mission carb balance tortilla, topped it with the eggplant spread and mozzarella cheese and toasted it. I ate a little more than half. And then I get really hungry around 3:30 – 4 pm each day! So I had the rest of my little pizza, a little protein brownie that I made last week and some Fage topped with the peaches! Funny, I can barely eat half the pizza for lunch, but then I can eat all that in the afternoon. For dinner I had a veggie and bean salad with chicken breast and a few mini rice cakes. That’s my day. When I figure it out, it seems that I’m getting about 1000 calories a day. Some might say that’s high for a 5 month post op, but I feel good at this amount. I may not be dropping weight like crazy, but at least I don’t feel like I’m going to drop dead from exhaustion or weakness. I try to concentrate on healthy, high protein foods that taste GOOD.


questions questions September 7, 2008

Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 5:53 pm

All week I have bounced from 186.5 to 186. It’s so very frustrating!!! Especially since I have a goal to reach 175 by OCT 7 , which is only a month away! UGH. I don’t think it’s gonna happen, but I have to stay positive that it COULD happen. What to do? I don’t know. I still struggle with knowing if I’m eating the right things or not. There’s no hard and fast rules post WLS. All surgeons have their own rules. Mine doesn’t have very strict rules. Then you throw in all the differences of what other people are doing and what works for them. Then you try and figure out what works for YOU. Carbs or no carbs? Low fat or full fat? moderation eating or no no foods? decaf or full leaded? straws or no straws? 6 small meals or 3 meals? I don’t know. I feel like I’m still finding my way. Is that ok? Or should I know what I’m doing now that I’m 5 months post op and the weight loss has slowed to crawl? Will the loss pick up again? Or will it be a major struggle for each oz lost? Is this a race or a way of life? If I stop losing now will I start gaining? Does it have to be loss or gain? Or can I maintain? Why is taking care of myself such a hard job?????? LOL! oh so many questions…..


Water August 31, 2008

Filed under: Food,Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 9:28 pm

I know it’s HUGE. But I love this. I took this photo last week while Tim and I went for a 4 mile walk around Boise’s greenbelt. It is so beautiful there. I try to get at least 3 bottles like this in every day.


Holy skinny Cow! August 13, 2008

Filed under: Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 4:57 pm

About 4 years ago I lost almost 60 lbs and got down to 180 (for a day!) and then started gaining back. Anyway, I bought these capri type pants at target cause they were clearanced for 5 bucks. I’ve never fit into them. They are a size 15 extra low cut. A couple of months ago I pulled them on, but there was no way my belly was going to fit into them. I figured it would be quite some time before they fit. Well for the past couple of weeks I’ve been the same weight. So I decided to measure myself to see if I was losing inches. It seems that I lost maybe an inch around my middle since last month. So just for fun (?) I decided to try the capris again. They fit!! So I grabbed my camera and snapped a couple of those popular bathroom mirror self portraits.

Note to self: clean bathroom mirror and sink before taking photographic evidence.

Here’s my ‘model’ pose. Then I came to my senses and had my daughter take a real photo of me (see the first picture)

I was pretty darned impressed with myself for getting into these. Really goes to show that if the scale isn’t moving, doesn’t mean your body isn’t readjusting.


saturday August 3, 2008

Filed under: Food,Just Me spillin' my guts — lookingforward73 @ 2:18 am

Slept in late. Got up. Had my coffee with creamer. Took a shower. Packed up and headed out for my walk. Took my shake with me. Ended up with a 4 mile walk, 10,000 steps. Drank a bottle of water too. Picked a few plums off a tree for a snack on the way home. For lunch I mixed a can of tuna into what was left from last nights cucumber salad. mmmmm. Ate half. Too a nap. Ate the rest of the tuna salad and a few more small plums. Tim and I gave each other shoulder massages. mmmm. Must get a professional massage soon. Now we are going to settle into several hours of season 2 of 24. Will probably have a snack somewhere in there. maybe some blueberry yumminess from below?